Where else was there a benediction?

Where else was there a walking away?

Where else was there a place to find and recognize 

That this is the moment when everything

Closes down, desaturates itself, stands lifeless

And forgets to pull the petals off the flowers

And let them benignly flutter to the ground 

Where they can be formed into a step-upon path

Opening the doorway to some new

Dimension of truth

 

We are all walking away from

Something all of the time

We are ever lost in hindrances

You must halt here

There is something that you have left behind 

That you owe a moment of righteousness to

That you are a linear pathway to

That you owe a moment of kindness to

 

But looking back is never the placation of the soul

That is needed to become 

An unwavering vessel

You must be forthright in your

Abdication of the throne 

There is nothing more that you could do here

To return the soft silhouettes 

Into vapor sensibilities 

There are preternatural patterns

Awaiting you in the darkness 

Beyond the place where you would linger

 

This is no escape 

This is a self-constructed kidnapping 

You only pretended to look away

You have turned your back on nothing 

You have forgotten nothing 

You have never stopped treading your feet

On these clandestine pathways 

 

You had imagined that there was forgiveness 

There is not.  There is only

Clarification of the lack of innocence 

You are unable to become a filter of redress

You are only able to become 

A reaction

Of prognosticated perdition 

 

Whatever it was you thought you had walked away from

You did not

It always remained 

And you only turned your back to it

It was always waiting for you

Because you never removed the cabinet from the mind 

You only closed the door

And hoped that would make it disappear 

It did not

It only kept your fear, your anxiety, your self-derision 

Isolated 

In a place where it could not shrink 

In a place where it could only grow

Escalate to heights unbelievable 

And when you returned to the place

Of unrequited weariness 

It washed you over like a tidal wave

 

Distraught with all of this insignificance 

You have lost your place in time

It is weapon of non-deliverance 

And you have fastened the pistol handle 

To you thumb and forefinger 

You are waiting to pull the trigger 

To continue the assassination 

That you had begun, but left incomplete 

In the cloistered shadows 

Of territorial regret

 

You forgot that you imagined that this 

Is all you are

You forgot that you imagined 

That this was some manifested precipice

Of universal collusion 

Waiting to encompass you wholly 

To never let you go

To never allow a moment’s peace with a cycle 

Of unremonstrated breath

 

You had forgotten that you had imagined 

There would never be any relapse of deliverance

You had forgotten that you had trapped yourself 

In internal dissolution 

Awaiting the silent, iconic, muscle finger 

Warrior cascade of lightning 

To fall from the sky

And designate you for eternal abrasion by fire 

 

You believed that you had walked away

But you never did

And now is the time for returning 

Because you cannot help yourself

To raise the roof of your mouth

And the corrupted passageways of nasal insertion 

Above the cement stingray engulfment 

Of all the lies 

And all the truths

Of all the rampant dislocation and disintegration 

Of pretended justice 

 

You believed there was an escape 

There was not

There is only acceptance, surrender and detachment 

The universal chorus of tripartite 

Dissension from discord 

All that you can do is sing the song

Whisper the chorus 

Chant the inebriation of the soul 

And await the overcoming 

 

It will come. It will rescue you

You must recognize the wisdom and truth of acceptance 

It is the only way to dance through 

The preservation of who you were never meant to be 

 

Do not run.  You will be chased 

Kneel down in acceptance 

The sword will fall

But it will not behead you

It will absolve you of all fear and terror

And give you grace to rise up and stand 

And simply walk away

And never have to escape